What is My Reality?
In this digital world where all answers are just a click away, there is suddenly an overload of information. Add to it, the social media which is now a global addiction has its own inputs of all kinds. For a person (read Me!) who is curious, with a mindset that gets affected by anything which is convincing enough, even complete contradictions, this is rather daunting and today, I seldom find clarity of thought! Everything seems right! To make matters worse are the spiritual teachings, which I agree with again, that tell you that there are no wrongs and no rights!
This information explosion gives us an ego of false knowledge as well. I suddenly feel like a doctor because WebMD speaks to me and I distribute knowledge like an Honorary Doctor. You must see a doctor’s expression if you open your mouth showing your vast knowledge (it will be a blessing to survive the look!!). The bottom line is that no matter which field it may be; medicine, fitness, diets, love, break ups, fashion, music, sports or children’s homework, Baba Google has all answers!
We wake up to a hundred Good morning Gyaan (knowledge) messages-spiritual, fact based, experience based, practical ones- anything to purify us and make us angelic for the rest of the day. (I have skipped the Good morning messages with only flowers altogether!!!) And “That” isn’t it!!! We get this gyaan throughout the day and aren’t spared at night either. The truth be told, during the action part of the day when we are barking or getting barked at, none of these messages come to our mind. A thought just cropped up- what if I am the only one who doesn’t apply this gyaan? In that case, I apologise folks and I better pull up my socks!!
I have been battling with weight issues from time immemorial and I have all the theoretical knowledge in the world. I have applied everything on myself (and continue to do so) and have lost considerable amounts of kilograms, sustainable at best for three months! Same is the case with my spiritual journey- I have read so much and joined so many courses off and on, online, offline and all these wise men can confuse the life out of you!!
In a recent conversation with my husband (Believe me, I am trying to get on the spiritual path but he will attain sainthood just interacting with me- patiently!!) he told me that I have in my head and heart all that I need to know and that I have to find my own reality! What works best for me! It reminds me of those gurus again who tell me to stay silent and listen to my inner self. Ok! Here’s the catch! There is a communication gap between us-no not my husband but my body. It doesn’t talk to me…my mind does and she can be devious!! I need the devil emoticon so badly!! Just when I make up my mind, she does a U-turn and convinces me that all the logic that had appealed to me in the first place was all wrong. What is the solution then, I wonder?
I am very comfortable in my own company and yet, despite staying alone for long hours I am neither still nor silent! I don’t get answers and my uncanny intuition, which was at its heightened best during my college days, has left me altogether! Things affect me a lot. I don’t watch the News or read the papers for both are depressing (I look blank when people discuss world issues) but most negative things manage to reach you via Face book or Whatsapp as warnings or jokes (these guys are really good and super quick- I’d love to spend a day watching them work!) or in some other form!
Another dear friend advised me to read everything till I was thorough and then discard it all. After that I was to tailor make what worked best for me (did my husband mastermind this conversation?!). Just like everything else I soak this in too. The latest message that I got tells me “the best place to start is where I am and now” and to also “follow my heart” so here I begin afresh.
The conclusions I have finally drawn are that I should give up thinking for it seldom stops at that! Before I know, it enters the over-thinking and analysis mode and that is bad news- it is a confusion time-bomb waiting to happen! Meditation is a difficult but most effective way to stop the buzz. Sadhguru(a renowned mystic) does come to the rescue here though. He says we never think of controlling our liver function or the functioning of our kidneys so why control the brain or mind- let it flow freely. Just sit quietly. It is helping a bit as in my sleep patterns are finally regularizing. Patience is the key for now and I shall let you know if I do find my reality!!
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What we learn as undisputed truths in early childhood is often contested when we reach adulthood. We now see new perspectives and reach a point where what we once considered blasphemy is now not all that bad- there are no absolute rights and wrongs in most cases, though some values remain strong and stand the test of time. https://www.musingswhileunlearning.com is a personal blog through which I express my thoughts; sometimes learning, sometimes unlearning, about almost everything life throws at us!
